as i sit here drinking my hot water (i gave up on tea this semester. i really don’t like it that much and find that hot water has pretty much the same effect, so i’ve switched to this cheaper version), i cannot believe that half of my first placement for student teaching is done already. it has been wonderful and i truly love every day, but it is exhausting and terrifying and tragic and impossible as much as it is beautiful and wonderful and joyful and blessed. this past week was so full. it was full of turmoil at vanderbilt over the new(ish) non-discrimination policy. it was full of exhaustion at beginning to take over full days of teaching. it was full of preparation for another full week this week. it was full of coffee, full of sunshine, full of rain, full of not-enough-time and full of pushing through. and today, in that fullness, i stopped.
i decided this year that i was going to attempt to take a sabbath every week. it’s a commandment that no one seems to care if we follow these days, and i realize that there will most likely be some seasons in my life were sabbath-ing is not a real possibility, and i have no real reason why i cannot sabbath now, in this season. i am still discovering what it means for me to take a day of rest, what i need to rejuvinate myself and prepare for a new week, but so far i’ve discovered this– God had (has? how do you use tense for timelessness?) it right.
i love knowing that, in the midst of a busy week, i am going to get a break on sunday. i look forward to time to take a nap, read for pleasure, and catch up on my quiet time. i get to spend more time with friends and feel less guilty about it, and i get to rest. some weeks, it seems impossible to get everything done in just 6 days, but i find myself being more productive in preparation for sunday and more rested and energetic post-sunday.
i trust that God will make 6 days enough- not because i am being obedient or because i deserve it, but because i trust Him.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.