i meant to blog every day-ish… whoops. i just sort of forgot.

i’ve also noticed that my lenten blog posts seem to have a “c” title theme- no idea if that’ll keep up.

mostly today, i’d like to share this. i went to a fantastic concert tonight, and when this song was played (i’d heard it before, but never really listened) i realized that it was very possibly written about my life. it’s too bad that i’ve never noticed brandon heath following me around before and writing beautiful lyrics about me. unfortunately, he seems to have missed the part where i still CAN’T really sing, but, you know.


I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I’m not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I’m not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I’m not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it’s a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I’m not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe ’cause I want it so much
I’m not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
I am not the same
But I never did forget your name

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that’s what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I’m not who I was


i really can’t add anything to that. go and be who you are today, regardless of who you’ve been.