i promised a real post… so here goes. i haven’t entirely decided what form it’s taking yet.

this semester is different from last- different better in some ways, different different in some ways. i really wouldn’t say that it’s different worse in any ways except that i’m taking more hours, which means more work.

i’ve (once again) been trying to figure out what to do with my life. each day i get closer to that time when i have to declare a major, and then closer to the more-distant-but-still-real graduation, when i have to move out into the real world and do real things that somehow make real money or at least give me food and shelter. i am, however, quite possibly the most “undecided” person in my group of friends- i’ve now *technically* taken classes in 3 out of 4 undergraduate schools here, and there’s always the chance that next semester i’ll decide to try out engineering to make it a well rounded 4. i’m taking an education class this semester- it was sort of an impulse thing, but… i’m loving it. i’ve never fully considered being a teacher before (for lots of reasons) but… we’ll see. i’m still incredibly undecided, don’t you worry.

The other day, during my quiet time i read this passage:

“Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. For he has humbled the inhabitants of the height, the lofty city. He lays it low, lays it low to the ground, casts it to the dust.” – Isaiah 26:4-5.

And i was thinking about… just what this passage means in my life. Every time i think i know what God is up to, he surprises me. i definitely fall into the category of  “one of the inhabitants of the height” sometimes- just sure of my self, not needing God’s influence in my life, i can do this on my own. But it says here that he will humble me when i get like that, and i’ve realized that in my life these past few weeks. there are a LOT of things i don’t understand, that i can’t see where God is going with them. But my Lord God is an everlasting rock, and i trust in him. or i try.

and to conclude this long and winding post, i think i’ll leave you with a wonderful song from my country music class (i thought being in school in nashville and being offered a country music class was too good of an opportunity to pass up. we get to meet bill lloyd of foster & lloyd next week!) anyway. i love this song. and despite what anyone else says, i think it has relevant meaning.

You got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you’re sittin’ at the table.
There’ll be time enough for countin when the dealin’s done.